THE OWNER;

I'm here alone
 thinking about my life,
 People don't understand me,

I don't understand them either.
 Never did, never will.

Carlson, 25thOCT
Nick: ahCoW
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Friday, October 30, 2009
Friday, October 30, 2009

why no understanding?
why cant you put yourself in other shoes?
why you just makes me think that you are always right?
you have never really understand what i am feeling yet you are blaming me.
i wonder what did i do wrongly

problems and problems
it wont end.
no peace at all.
too many fucktard
grow up please.
tired of all these nonsense.

why everytime i wanted to share something
all i could look for is loneliness?
people only know how to show care when someone tries to end their life
i guess there's something wrong with this quote:
"people committing suicide is just a form of attracting attention."
this is wrong
totally wrong.
people commit suicide not because they are attracting attention
they just need to get off something off themselves
they just need a fucking ear that listen to them
when they just cant find any, they have no more route to go.
they talk to themselves, others think they crazy.
the only way to end all these sorrows, they just end their life.
everybody in this world are killers.
FML.
Perhaps my life ending soon.
maybe just like them?
fuck you, fuck you very much. fucktard.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Thursday, October 29, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009

Seriously, FML please.
I cant hold on anymore.
Im seriously tired.
DAMN FUCK UP
I need someone to talk to.
anybody free?
doubt so.FML.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Sunday, October 25, 2009
Sunday, October 25, 2009

hmm,
had hell loads of fun yesterday!haha.
went power house after dinner.
though there are lots of people, but its fun! :)
didnt really like it when people staring at you just because you are at the dance floor with girls.
lol. they are just damn childish.
feel like laughing at them when they stare at me.
kids, grow up please..hahahaha.

anyway, this birthday is the best that i ever had.
love my family! :)
thanks my sis for the wonderful gift.
thanks to my dad for the birthday wishing at the time that i was born.
i really appreciate the things they did.
love them all! :D

last but not least, thanks for the wishes my friends.
you guys rocks. :)

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Friday, October 23, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009

Feeling damn moody now.
Dont ask me why, cuz I cant give you an answer.
Every night, same feeling, same mood.
FML please.
I just cant stop my mind from thinking
Alot of things are flashing in my mind.
DAMN DAMN DAMN.
I just feel like slashing myself
worried about this worried about that.
FUCK LAH.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Friday, October 23, 2009

DAMN. life seriously sucks.
got to see a doc soon.
getting sick. maybe should just end my life.
FML.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Some people just cant stop those nonsense.
Found a definition of sore loser.
Just for that person.

SORE LOSER: Someone who can't simply be honorable, by accepting defeat and/or trying again. On the contrary, said individual or group engages in childish pissing and moaning; bitching about how it's not fair and the other side cheated, etc.




"With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things BETTER?!?!

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments die, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?"

I am just feeling damn miserable. Can you understand how am i feeling right now?
Who can fucking understand it. -.-
Fuck it Fuck you FUCK MY LIFE

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Sunday, October 18, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009

FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU VERY MUCH. -.-

LIFE is just a LIE without a FUCK. zzz.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Friday, October 16, 2009
Friday, October 16, 2009

State of depression.
Doubt anybody would really knows how i feels right now.
I wanna give up.. Absolutely everything..-.-
GOD..Why didnt you took me away!zzz
Heartbroken again and again.
just let me die..
let me bleed to death..

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Thursday, October 15, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009

Could not take it anymore!!! ARGH!

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Mind your attitude.
It just fucking piss me off.
FUCK OFF.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Monday, October 12, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009

Call me a weakling.
I sucks. This world sucks even more.
I cant stand this world.
just feel like leaving here..
everyday is a torture to me..
corner no longer helps me.
loneliness no longer my best friend.
blog doesnt help me get better..
i wan to live life like before..
everything seems to be a dream..
i hate myself..
everyday, same feelings..
paranoid, moodless, irritated, fears..
trembles like an emo. depressed like nobody business.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Friday, October 9, 2009
Friday, October 09, 2009

I know I act like I don't care, but it's just a cover-up because I care too much to tell anyone.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.