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I'm here alone
thinking about my life,
People don't understand me,

I don't understand them either.
Never did, never will.

Carlson, 25thOCT
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INTERESTS;
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PEACE
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Wednesday, January 28, 2009

最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心最怕回憶
突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然
聽到你的消息想念如果會有聲音
不願那是悲傷的哭泣事到如今
終於讓自己屬於我自己
只剩眼淚
還騙不過自己突然好想你
你會在哪裡
過得快樂或委屈突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛我們像一首最美麗的歌曲
變成兩部悲傷的電影為什麼你
帶我走過最難忘的旅行
然後留下
最痛的紀念品我們
那麼甜那麼美那麼相信
那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去突然好想你
你會在哪裡
過得快樂或委屈突然好想你
突然鋒利的回憶
突然模糊的眼睛最怕空氣突然安靜
最怕朋友突然的關心最怕回憶
突然翻滾絞痛著不平息
最怕突然
聽到你的消息最怕此生
已經決心自己過沒有你
卻又突然
聽到你的消息

nothing can describe my feelings except this song. =)
imy badly..
why did i feel that i am unable to contact you anymore?
hope u would understand how i am feeling..

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Sunday, January 25, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009

Some nice description about me =)


What others see from your style

Although to the untrained eye you may seem like a plain dresser who avoids trends, you actually wear carefully designed accessories and clothes that emphasize your uniqueness. You value your freedom and have an artistic mind. You are neither aggressive nor timid, but you believe in yourself.

What your nightclothes reveal

You are friendly and always in good mood. You are candid and helpful, and can be sexy at times too.

What others see from your ties

You are strong-minded and determined. Even though you may appear to be gentle, you are actually a stubborn person who loves to be challenged.

What others see from your belts

You tend to be outspoken and even aggressive. You either love or hate people, ideas and things. You can sometimes find facing the truth difficult and are an extremely confident person.

What others see from your shoes

You are a person who loves simplicity and is sincere and open. You are pleasant to be with, easygoing and always in a good mood. You neither want to control nor be under someone else's control. You don't care much about how you look, and know that it's what's inside someone's heart that's important.

What others see from your earrings

You are probably a free spirit at heart with artistic talent. You are absolutely unique and are always coming up with lots of great ideas. Being happy is your most important goal.

The last analysis

You are probably a romantic and passionate person. You are sensitive and lonely when you aren't in love. You can be somewhat self-centered, but you are honest and sincere to others. You like to make a good impression of yourself and worry about what others think of you.


What is your favorite fruit? Apple.

You are tough, hard-working and responsible. When you are assigned to do something, you will do your best no matter how difficult the job at hand might be.

You are imaginative and colorful. You attract people just by the way you talk. This can make some people feel jealous.

You are cautious and think twice about every action before you take it. You are also a very giving person, and are always thinking about how others are feeling.

Wearing no rings at all suggests that you want to live a simple, no-frills life. You are sincere, trustworthy, peaceful, clever, hard-working and always want to learn new things. You tend to shy away from crowds and avoid conflict whenever you can.

You sincerely believe that everything around you is beautiful, even though other people may not notice. You are a determined person and set high goals for your life.

Peaceful, just and reasoned are the best words to describe you. Friends often come to you for advice when they have problems. You love to make people laugh and gain happiness simply by being surrounded by smiling faces and the sound of laughter.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward.
You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Saturday, January 24, 2009
Saturday, January 24, 2009

2 more days to CNY?
hmm..i am neither happy nor excited about it.
been stressed up by problems again and again..
locking myself at home, making me busy with things..
i guess everything will move on smoothly.
pray hard that every troubles would be gone.
and give myself a fresh new start..
i am putting down everything i used to have.
throwing them away and be a new self..
kinda giving me all sorts of troubles..-.-
i rather be a happy-go-lucky guy than be a happy-come-trouble guy.
hate my life..
LIFE SUCKS.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳    
你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳
逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒
等着哪一天你也想起那悬在记忆中的美好


Hope i can be able to move on..
Lets move on to the next step.
hopefully it is not another regret..=)

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Thursday, January 22, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009

Let me do some definitions before i start with my post..
This is indeed making me frustrated and curious right now.

Lets start from this:
Definition of JUSTICE-
1. the quality of being just; righteousness, equitableness, or moral rightness: to uphold the justice of a cause.
2. rightfulness or lawfulness, as of a claim or title; justness of ground or reason: to complain with justice.
3. the moral principle determining just conduct.
4. conformity to this principle, as manifested in conduct; just conduct, dealing, or treatment.
5. the administering of deserved punishment or reward.
6. the maintenance or administration of what is just by law, as by judicial or other proceedings: a court of justice.
7. judgment of persons or causes by judicial process: to administer justice in a community.
8. a judicial officer; a judge or magistrate.
9. (initial capital letter) Also called Justice Department. the Department of Justice.

Definition of MORAL-
1. of, pertaining to, or concerned with the principles or rules of right conduct or the distinction between right and wrong; ethical: moral attitudes.
2. expressing or conveying truths or counsel as to right conduct, as a speaker or a literary work; moralizing: a moral novel.
3. founded on the fundamental principles of right conduct rather than on legalities, enactment, or custom: moral obligations.
4. capable of conforming to the rules of right conduct: a moral being.
5. conforming to the rules of right conduct (opposed to immoral ): a moral man.
6. virtuous in sexual matters; chaste.
7. of, pertaining to, or acting on the mind, feelings, will, or character: moral support.
8. resting upon convincing grounds of probability; virtual: a moral certainty.
9. the moral teaching or practical lesson contained in a fable, tale, experience, etc.
10. the embodiment or type of something.
11. morals, principles or habits with respect to right or wrong conduct.




As you can see from the definitions up there..
I am sure it is very clear about what does these two words mean.
But I am right now, very curious about law of justice.
Encounter with 2 O today.
Didn't manage to find all these points from them...
Are they qualified to be one of the O?
I don't understand..REALLY REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND.
can someone tell me the answer?


Let me tell you about my small ambition.
My ambition is to be a police officer in future..I AM SERIOUS.
but..today's encounter have let me think otherwise.
DO YOU KNOW WHY?
these two O..
did the right thing to maintain the law by stopping those people from breaking the rules.
however, they did something that is wrong..
they have did something that shouldn't be done for being an O.
let me talk about MORAL.
look carefully. it is MORAL..
why did i add this into this situation is because, i find it linked to justice.
as when we talk about moral,
we talk about principles or habits with respect to right or wrong conduct.
but..these O did something with no respect at all..
they have no respect to the person that was caught.
they shown one attitude that an officer should not have done.
i find it hard to believe when i get to know their status.
ok let me bring this situation to the actual situation.
firstly, O should show their status before taking actions towards things.
these two did not do that.
they simply start questioning, take down particulars.
but started showing attitude, just because the person being caught said something like "Lah,Leh,Lor"?
I don't understand what trigger their anger that they cannot stand that..
and as we know that, all these words have been used by most of us.
is it an offence to say these words?
i really don't understand.
I am still fine with it.
what i am curious is,
why they did not let us have the right to speak?
interrupting us when we wanted to explain out..
explanation also counted as offence?
i wonder where does the fairness lies on.
took down particulars, went off without letting the person to know who are they.
is this the right thing to be O?
the person that was caught, eventually chased them.
curious about who are they,
one of the Os replied in a rude manner.
ARE YOU HAPPY?SATISFIED NOW?
oh my..
is this the way to speak?
from the way he communicate,
i had therefore concluded that,
justice is no longer there..
there was no sense of moral..
the person being caught was hurt morally.
why is this happening?
i wonder if there is anything that can change it..
i only wanted an answer..
that is why i didn't show who are those person.
so can someone please tell me what is happening?
and what can we do to stop it?


sorry to say that,
all answers should not be commented on this blog.
please msn me so that i could discuss the answer with you.
thanks =)

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Sunday, January 18, 2009
Sunday, January 18, 2009

What is your True Fear?
Your Result: Looked down on
 

You have a very high self image. You're the kind of person that loves being in the center of attention. You're very outgoing, and outspoken. You also always have to look you're best. Whether going out, or just hanging out with the girls if you're not looking great you're not happy. You're a natural born leader, and love when people look up to you. You're worst fear is that someone won't like you, or look up to you. If someone criticized or critiqued you to the point that people stopped wanting to hang around you, or began thinking less of you that would be your worst nightmare. You secretly really want to be liked, respected and appreciated by others. A good way to make sure that people have a positive view of you is to consider their thoughts and feelings also.

Disappointment
 
Commitment
 
Being Alone
 
Death
 
Losing Someone
 
Where Your life is Going
 
What is your True Fear?
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Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Friday, January 16, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009

seriously speaking..
life become meaningless to me, without you..=)
i hope you would be able to know abt this..
this year resolution have been made!
i not going to post it out xD
hopefully you can feel it..
i really cannot take my eyes off you..=X
many bad things have been happening these few days..
hopefully you would stay happy and cheerful as before. =)
missed the smile from you! xD

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Thursday, January 15, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009

today having a damn bad mood..
damn irritated by everything..
totally not in a mood at all..
freaking hell..=.=
what is wrong..
totally piss off by everything..

WHAT A BAD DAY..
Dont even know what is wrong and yet i am so fed up..
what the hell..
dont talk to me..
i am in no mood to talk right now..zzz.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Tuesday, January 13, 2009

DAMN..
feeling damn irritated and moodless right now..
please..dont do anything that will irritates me..
i have no mood to do anything too..
damn SIAN...
UT have just passed..
one more UT to go..and that's it.
goodbye to this school..=O

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Monday, January 12, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009

one more week to holidays!!!
my pathetic ten weeks holidays is finally arriving!..
i have been waiting for it since Semester 2 start..lols.
today is the 'O' level result release date..
hope my results will not be the same as the previous one..=X

i am so anxious yet so scare..
DAMN..this is making me unable to concentrate in class..
i think i not going to do anything in class today..
will be waiting for 2pm to come..=X
time..please turn faster! xD

okays. good luck to me..=)
shall post again if my result is not bad..lols. =D
and and and..yesterday went out with parents.
bought one more set of clothes for me! woot.
shirts and shirts..yeah!lols..
cya.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Monday, January 5, 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE! =D

new year with new life =)
but this year doesnt seems to be a good start for me..
this is the fifth day of the 2009,
i have experienced too many bad things during these days..
nothing seems to be much more better than these experiences..
nightmares for me man..Zzz..

hopefully things would get better..
anyway, today is the first of school..
school reopen..
that is the least that i want it to happen..xD
you can see how boring it is as i could still blog at this point of time.
i guess tomorrow would be much more better for me..=)
HOPEFULLY..lol.

now considering whether transferring is a good choice..
advice would be appreciated..thanks. xD
back to my considerations..cyas!

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.