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I'm here alone
thinking about my life,
People don't understand me,

I don't understand them either.
Never did, never will.

Carlson, 25thOCT
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Saturday, September 27, 2008
Saturday, September 27, 2008

Damn..not feeling well today.
spoil my mood..
actually is to go out today...but not feeling well..haiz.
just wanna rest..
cannot find my energy..=.=
sian..
anyway, monday going out..self declare holiday!lol.
gonna buy the hoody.xD

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Friday, September 26, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008

Woah..today another holiday for me..hahas. Cool..
have a long holidays man..from today till next wednesday! hahas.
school days simply just takes up all my time and energy..
but..better stop that liao..gonna regret soon..=X

Hmm.. i wanna buy new clothings again...lol.
To do/buy list:
-black hoody xD
-v-neck button shirts..
-maybe a B&W cap..
-tapered pants.
-formal shirt =D

hope to get them by this month..lol.
cant wait till the one week holiday! hahas.
and also..EXAM coming!! T_T
revision must start liao! CHIONG AH!!lol.
last minute works sia...hahas.


Sometime..life is just that complicating..
When you want to have a change in yourself, you look forward to the future..
When you have already changed in time, you just prefer the past..
just missed some past time i had..
so..once you lost something, it is gone forever..
no use finding it back..it is just meaningless..
shall continue with my life like this..=X
emo emo emo..hehe.
but what i should do now is...
back to gym..hahas.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Monday, September 22, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008

hatred...hatred...hatred...
full of hatred..
don't wanna talk more about that..
not in a good mood nowadays..
things never went well..
life sucks..=.=


wanna say some of the things to almost all the facis from my sem 2 class..
please give grade accordingly..assholes..=.=
hate the way they do their work..
please get off my back..

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Sunday, September 21, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008

Have a sudden thoughts of posting..
Today browse through some blogs..
Read a post from Raymond..
cool post for me..i just like that..hahas.
gonna get some words from there..
pardon me from 'stealing' ur post..lol.


i finally found out about what is the problem that lies between my friendship.
BUT i am sure this problem would not have a solution.
hate to solve problems that have absolutely no solution..=X

ok lets start with the posting..

When you have people around you. Lots of them. And these people call themselves friend of yours.
But yet you feel lonely in the mids of them. Even as you are starting conversation,sharing jokes or in the same place; doing the same thing.
Yet, you are lonely.
And you feel there is no cure for this loneliness. And you look around wondering whether the problem lies with the group you are with or with you. So you end the day confused and frustrated or maybe leads to depression..
this is a very good example of what i am leading now..=X HATE THIS!
after reading this i felt that i am such an emo..lol.

talking about myself..
i does find myself being alone all the time..
even if many people are around me, in the end i still feel lonely..
what is lacking behind it?
maybe i am just not socialable..
should i just don't bother it or should i just continue on what i am?

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Thursday, September 18, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008

DISAPPOINTED...HATRED..
all comes together..
hope that it goes together too..
when disappointment and hatred combines together, it will be ANGER..
don't wanna vent my anger on anyone..
hope to be alone..
let me be..

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008


Utterly disappointed..
not on people but myself..
just a failure in doing everything..
ADDICTION kills...attitude rocks.


Can't bring myself back to the past..shall take a step at a time..=)
changes made shall never go back to the past..
nothing can bring back what you loses..
Once u lose it, u lost it forever..never get back again..


why i have so many irritating faci or maybe cork up faci?..
i wonder..
i just prefer my previous facilitators...except for one or two..
how i wish they could be my faci again..
all these faci i had is just irritating me alot..
the way they teach..=.=
please..i hope to have more space to breathe for the next few weeks..
i am getting breathless..
they are just out to squeeze me dry..DAMN.
i guess i will not be meeting some people anymore..that is the saddest thing..
i just hope to be back to the past..=)

found one picture that caught my eye..
perhaps for about few months ago..
just found this pictures..
it is cool..hahas.
wanna have the shirt with this picture on it..
flexor..=)

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Saturday, September 13, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008

Today is Saturday..Yet i was spending almost the whole day at HOME..
DAMN..this is damn boring..
I wanna go out..cant wait to go out man..
somebody please ask me out!!!
lol..tomorrow going to go out..hehe.
hope the time would move slowly tomorrow..
cause i have to drag myself to school on monday again..
don't feel like going to school again..=.=

i just hope to be like those students from other poly..
having such a long holiday..
people having holiday yet i am there in school..
nothing but study..
hate studying..
please have some slacking moments for me..hahas.

hopefully starting from monday i shall report to school everyday..
staying in class throughout the whole lesson..lol.
no more irritating faci..hmm..
WISHFUL THINKING..=.=
hope that everyday would be fun so as to motivate me to school..lol.

wanna go out so badly..
i wanna slack n slack..hahas.
but..slacking also not so good lah..lol.
shall decrease the time for slacking..=)

hope october will end soon..
i don't want exams!!ARGH!
faster 18..so that i can be officially touch that..lol.
just hope time would pass by fast..lol.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Hmm..today not feeling that well..
somemore get irritated many times..
just hate today..=.="
mood get even worse after one after another hours...DAMN
irritated many times..sorry that i could not control it..
i just could not be able to control it..i just wanna be alone.

school day for today is not smooth at all..
haiz.. don't even feel like saying it..
will just try to drag myself to school every of that lesson..
is math module anyway..=X

hmm.. was abit happy as i heard that the relief science faci left..
and my real faci is teaching me next week onwards..
shall be there next lesson!lol.
how i wish i have that mentality that i should report school..hahas.
just don't really feel like stepping into the class facing these kinds of facis..

shall not post already..
i am damn pissed off..
please cool me down...cant stop scolding people..DAMN.

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Tuesday, September 09, 2008

just edited post..
find it too harsh..
should not be saying all these things..
but i guess i am just too frustrated on that day..=X

anyway, adapting in progress..xD
still find it hard..haiz.
DAMN SIAN MAN!
sorry guys in W34F..
always not in the mood to do things..
just hate some faci..
stop being irritating...=.=

don't feel like posting already..lol.
shall bear with 1 more day and will jabot once again..wahaha.
planned already..LOL.

still looking forward to more and more W35F outings and "AH" FAMILY gatherings..hehe
tomorrow enterprise module..shall BEAR with it..=)
great team tomorrow..xD

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Monday, September 8, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008

feel like posting suddenly..just switch on the com to blog..haha.
just now went marina square with "AH" family..=)
never get bored going out together with them..xD

not going to talk about what happen today..=X
cause..again! i touch on that AGAIN!
DAMN! i really wanted to stop doing that..
Why is it that i could not be able to control..
nevermind then..i will continue to try my best..

today is damn unlucky too..or mayb walk too much that my slipper is spoil..
sian sia..so bought a shoe instead..haha.
looking forward to more and more outings with W35F=)

i will try my best to be in part of W34F=)
post edited..=X
shall not post that..
that's too much..hehe.
be more careful in the way i should talk next time=)


<3 "AH" FAMILY.. xD

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Sunday, September 7, 2008
Sunday, September 07, 2008

3 days of school have passed..
still not used to the new class i had..
sorry guys that i leave the class during the 2nd break on last friday..
really cannot take it as 3 days in a row, i have 3 irritating faci..=.=
still adapting to the new environment, i hope it will all get better..=)
sorry about the slowness in the group as i find it hard to do things together with people i have not know..
BUT, got along well with minghee(Shane's friend),hao jun(Ron's friend) and jean..
as we were in the same team for the first lesson..xD

haiz..still missed W35F peeps..haha.
miss all the fun we spent together..
cs-ing during break time...
pool session after school...
going town after school...
slacking with 'AH' family! hahas.
additionally, freaking miss the 'AH' FAMILY!lol.
how i wish i could still spend my time with them..xD
however, when school started, have been meeting them everyday..hahas.
friday again with the jabot gang..lols..(me,benny and kitty)hahas.
we are the jabotors...lol.
wanna slack more with them...T_T
but really have to concentrate already! cause, exams is coming..(not UT)..lol

had my hair cut anyway..which is damn short now..
some people still can say that i never even cut my hair! damn..
not going to talk about it..just don't like styling my hair..hahas.

Almost 2 weeks already i guess..i think i can take that out soon..
but don't know should i or should i not take it out..hahas.
cause need buy new one..=.=

erm..one more thing that i really need to force myself to stop..
no more touching on 'THAT' thingy..
not even one..
must control already!
not a single one ok!
must be able to that man..
this is my goal now! hahas.

hmm.. still got one more thing..
about this quote..
'Once you lose it, you lost it forever..'
this is regarding to two situations..
i shall not name that out..not to be so obvious..=.=
i guess that kind of feeling is already gone after time..
so i hope everything would gets better in time..=)
hope we can start a fresh new life...=)
i should let go earlier..

for the 2nd situation..
to someone..
if you think, you are doing the right things, i have no say..
but if you choose to neglect totally, i guess i will have to tell you that the ship have sank..
neglect is the big mistake people like to made..hopefully you would get well..
but don't bother to come and look for me after that..i don't give a damn..
therefore, that's your problem now, what for i care about..=.=


hopefully, everything would be back to normal..
hate this semester..as all the bad things are coming back..=.=
give me a break!

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Tuesday, September 02, 2008

tomorrow school reopen..
this is not the day i look forward to..
damn sian..
this holiday is just too little..3 pathetic weeks.

Also, tomorrow gonna make new friends, adapt to new classroom..
Hate to do these..maybe i am already used to being with W35F people =)
how i wish i can go back to the same class and be with the same people of last semester..
miss those days we play counter-strike, miss the days we went for pool, miss those days we went out together..

with the new semester starting, i guess we can still meet up =P
but..the time we spent is gonna be lesser T_T
hmm..i guess i have to be as hardworking as before.. Cause O level paper is round the corner!!
although there is still about 5 or 6 more weeks, but i still have not get prepared!!

REVISION PERIOD is starting...i gonna be stress up! Damn it..
hate taking exams and tests..

hope this few weeks would gonna be stress free..lol (wishful thinking) =X
have to plan for my revision..have to plan for whatever i am doing..perhaps the revision is gonna start this saturday!! no more outings, slacking and entertainment for me..haiz..

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.