Sunday, May 9, 2010

Everything I've believed in, has lied to me.

you said you are there for me
but when I really open up to you , you just don’t want to see
you act like you care
but when I have these thoughts and break downs I ring and you are never there

you don’t know what It’s like, to want to die
take the rope, f**k life and hold on tight
when I tell you I want to die, it’s no word of a lie
it's all building up, I’m weak, I just want to surrender the fight

I can’t sleep at night, can’t sleep anymore
my constant pain, my constant heart sore
all the thoughts of death, I have and suicide
I tell you about them, why do you expect me to hide

I thought you were the one I could turn to when it got too much
well you could have fooled me, my feelings you don’t want to touch
I will just stay away, I get it, crystal clear
but one day suicide will take over, then maybe you will realize my fear

it's ok, I get it, it's not happening to you
so it’s not a big deal, get over it, let it pass through
here’s the thing I have to say, now it’s my turn to speak
never push me too far
cuz one day I’ll be weak
and found dead on the bed
please don’t push me too far


you never tried to understand this pain yet you pretend you understand everything.
you never realise the pain inside me all along.
all you did was to stay there and listen and do nothing.
stop pretending when you doesnt know anything.